When it clicks

As I went to bed last night it hit me. 

It’s been a month or so since Emily decided to sleep in her own bed… In her room… With the door closed. 

I am so proud of her. 

We’ve tried on many occasions to get her to sleep in her bed but it didn’t work. 

I enjoyed sleeping next to her… I didn’t try really hard to move her to her bed. 

 

 It started when she she was 5 and ended last month. 

11 years later…

 It clicked. 

Just like that…

One night Emily asked me to tuck her in…

She asked me to call the Paw Patrol pups and to make a puppy pile at the feet of her bed… (We are using her webkinz) 

She asked me to sing Soft kitty…

And to close the door!  

 

Just like that, it clicked!

I didn’t force her. 

I didn’t lose any sleep over it. 

I allowed her to cuddle for as long as she needed and one day…

She moved out!  I wonder what else she will just do one day!  

I am aware

I am aware of so many things… 

Sometimes I wonder how it is that I can still learn. 

I am aware of the time without having to look at a clock. 

I am aware of how long it takes for Emily to….

Wake-up

Use the bathroom

Brush her teeth

Have breakfast with or without the tv on

I am aware of ….

How much soap she uses in the shower or if she needs help rinsing her hair

I know how long it will take her to get dress after a shower as opposed to getting dress on a morning without a shower

I am aware of the food we have in the pantry and in the fridge so I know that we are ok to make lunches for school

I am aware of which pieces of clothing are clean and which are in the laundry basket. I always know if what she wants to wear is clean. 

I am aware of how long it takes Emily to pick an outfit…

I know when I need to pick her outfit and I know how to lay her clothes on her bed for her to get ready faster. 

It’s not even 8am and I’m already aware of so many things…

While I make sure Emily stays on task, I am also getting ready for my day.

I know how she is feeling. I know when she’s healthy or sick and I know when she’s trying to fake being sick.   I know which part of her body hurts even when she can’t tell me. 

I am aware of the help she will need to clean-up and do her hair and make-up

I know to ask her if she wants to put on jewelry

 …

I am aware of the weather

I know how to help Emily pick her shoes, jacket and scarf for the day

I know the music she wants to listen to on the way to school

I am aware when she wants to talk and when she wants to sing. 

I see every changes on the floor, ground, sidewalk, hallway, stairs. I know Emily might not see them or might think their is a step when there is none.  So I am aware of our surroundings… All the time. 

I am aware of so many things….

And it’s not even 8am. 

No wonder I’m exhausted at night. 

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